How on Earth did I get here?
I truly don't know. One of my partners pointed out to me the other day that I'd been grinding an ink stick for a solid hour in slow circles on my favorite ink stone, listening to the Ramones having existential angst about 70s Britain. He wandered in, sniffed at the air, and asked what I'd been doing since I took out the garbage.
The clock had moved. Why hadn't I? Had it really been so pleasant to just sit there slowly moving a stick of sooty glue in a circle on what is more or less a rock?
I've had a suspicion for awhile that there are just some things we do as human beings that're more or less essential to being human. You can't get a whole bunch these things from sitting in an office or working in a shopping mall. You get them from the tiniest of actions and when they appear it's almost shocking to find yourself reconnected with what it means to be a person after a day of slightly grim activities in pursuit of enough money to pay rent and eat dinner. Grinding ink is a 3000 year old activity and maybe one that's more valuable than most people in the West suspect.
Grinding ink is beautiful.
Nice, perfumed Japanese or Chinese inks can fill a room with a subtle scent of sandalwood or herbs or burning spices. There's a whole universe in sitting to fill your ink well and prepare for your practice. You might find yourself in prayer or meditation, just listening to your own heart-beat beside the sensation of the ink stick scratching at the bottom of your stone. Even the satisfaction of the ink forming, like a black pool of hypnotic not-quite-water that seems to move slower than everything around it feels like a sacrament.
If you haven't had the chance to grind ink for calligraphy, yet, I heartily encourage it. There are the practical reasons, of course ; you get to determine how dark, light, thick, or thin you want your letters to be. At the same time, you also get to see a glimpse into a quiet, gentle world where time trickles by like droplets of rain coursing slowly down a window pane as a cat sits purring on your lap.