Hi Gabby -
Have you read through the Spencerian Threads here on FF? The very first one is "Learning Spencerian - Resources." Maybe something there will help you out.
If you haven't already, go to the IAMPETH website. There is all kinds of help there, including lessons and books.
I am not motivated to learn unless I really like the exemplar. You could look for an exemplar that you like (envy?) and choose it to study.
I learned Spencerian first from Harvest Crittenden and Michael Sull. Lately I have been enjoying studying from Lessons in Ornamental Penmanship published by the Zaner-Bloser Company. You can find this book, and download it for free, from the IAMPETH website.